As certain transformation is made, some ascensions take place. As one's understanding evolves and grows deeper, one's mind ascends even higher to an even higher level than before. To another class entirely. When looking into the situation from a third person view I realize my relations to others have changed. It's not the same as it used to. We are no longer on the same level. Where I have seen little change in others, I have found great change in myself. The way my mind works is so different from previous years. Previous months even. It seems to change faster than anyone is able to comprehend. No one seems to see that change. Nobody seems to notice. This being said I haven't really done anything to show anybody. Not that I'm hiding anything but I'm not doing anything special to show it. Nor should I have to.
But if I never do, will anybody acknowledge me for me and not who I was?
Friday, June 18, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
Contemplations and Realisations
So here I am, back in Ireland. First time in 4 years or so. Things really do change in time. I've met my new cousin and those other cousins which lived abroad last time I was over. But to my disliking I've managed to grow apart from the rest of the lads. To me they don't seem to have changed at all. It's a pity really, would have liked to meet someone more my age. But then again I've found that I fit better in with the adults. But the only problem is that they usually speak about thing which I don't really have a say in. Like people and the olden days and that kind of stuff. Not really anything I would know much about. So then there is another problem. But the discussions we have had have been nice.
The last visitors thought I certainly was a Murphy. Which means I'm more like my mother than my father. But that didn't really surprise me that much either. I've apparently got the most Murphy in me of all the Kongaris. Don't know if that's a good thing or not but let's just take it as a compliment. I asked in what way but she couldn't answer. She said there was just something about me.
A feeling of home in a place where you feel that you're not really home. Now isn't that a strange feeling?
The last visitors thought I certainly was a Murphy. Which means I'm more like my mother than my father. But that didn't really surprise me that much either. I've apparently got the most Murphy in me of all the Kongaris. Don't know if that's a good thing or not but let's just take it as a compliment. I asked in what way but she couldn't answer. She said there was just something about me.
A feeling of home in a place where you feel that you're not really home. Now isn't that a strange feeling?
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