Friday, August 27, 2010

Life goes on

Once again I'm sitting here with my other life in Vasa. Right now looking back on what was. Those people who are missing. Those who were a big part of last year. To think people missing from a scene can make all that difference. As I think of them missing I also think of those who are now in their place, only a few years younger. I don't know what to think about that. It's not the same anymore. There's such a big part missing. It's too big to forget about. But then again, why stay stuck in the past? As time moves on people come and go. Some stay longer than others but in the end they all leave one way or the other.

I don't know what to say about my new room mates. They're so different from my previous ones. And different from each other as well. I don't really like the situation to be frank. But that's one thing I'll just have to cope with.

Change is inevitable...

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Rough Roads

I guess you shouldn't be surprised really. Something's always bound to happen sooner or later. You'll always find a rough road here and there. Sometimes your method of getting past doesn't work as smoothly as usual or expected. You could say my gameplan wasn't that great for this event. My cargo was too fragile and so it seemed to have broken. The condition is yet unconfirmed for it wasn't looked at enough. Just kind of left for dead? I'm not at ease leaving things like this. Completely unnecessary. Should at least leave it at an angle that's workable? Wouldn't that be best?

I'll just have to go on and see if there might be any more options later on.

Friday, August 6, 2010

Ghosts of the Past

As I went about with my work my mind once again raced through a series of thoughts. I realized that the time of relaxation is soon to be over. Even though I haven't felt very relaxed really. I don't feel like this time has helped me very much at all. When I think about it this summer hasn't really been all that great. There's been loads of stuff going on and problems everywhere. No real rest. No vehicle so it's been hard to get around. I haven't been with all the people I wanted to be with.

A mere week and reality's back again. The world once again starts and there will be other things which occupy the mind, hopefully. Being here for this lenght of time has given me a clearer view of the reality of today. Of what has become of that which was. A sad truth indeed. Mere words don't seem to be able to penetrate those blocks. The gates seem to be shut tightly. Such ignorance. Pathetic really.

When thinking of what is waiting I start to see them. A continuation of those closed chapters. Imagining what is waiting. In my thoughts I then see them, the Ghosts of the Past. Playing with my mind. Showing me unpleasant things. Things which are very unlikely though. I sencerely doubt these events truly could play out yet the feeling is still there as if they really are.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Camporee

After being gone a week from everyday life I've come to see different things. Things that are somewhat amusing but still very missplaced. It's made me wonder how you can missplace such a thing on such an unfitting person and not realize how wrong it really is? And on the other side you see something happening that is as bullseye as it gets. Such powerful words with a impressively good bodylanguage. Some familiar moments within this unfamiliar moment. Just like if I've been here before doing this exact things seeing the exact things and thinking the exact same thoughts. Something very familiar with the whole experience.

Still one may wonder what really happened and why?
Does simple explanations not suffice any more?