Rejoice

So much happening it's hard to keep up. It's so amazing that things start to make a lot more sense. So much good, so much love. It's ineffable. So many people playing their parts in this big story and they cannot understand the weight and importance of their participation. All these pieces fall into place. All the rubble now works like a jigsaw and those chaotic pieces are in order. So much has gone in and now even more of the direction is revealed.

Laughter.

Joy.

A love like no other. The presence that is just something else. 

There it was repeated, over and over again. I knew I had to look it up. As I found it I was reminded or something essential. 

So much happiness brought from a conversation. I just had to write something. 

Escalation

It's nice to see how things are working out. Open conversation is the key. A lot of deathtraps have been avoided. I believe I've reached a deeper level of dealing. Those distractions don't seem so big anymore. I have a plan and I see no reason to deviate from that plan. I believe I'm no longer that dull blade, I'm being sharpened. Perhaps even more sharpened than before. 

There is a new chapter about to be written. I look forward to it.

Floating

I'm so very thankful. I've a lot to be thankful for. I survived. I got through this rough patch, but not by my own strength. I'm so thankful for all the people who've been there for me, giving me the support I need. I'm so grateful for all the encouragement given. You helped me hold this boat together.

I have really learnt a lot. I'm in a completely different place. We came through the storm, stronger than before. Life is moving on. I feel free. 

I've felt really inspired lately. My love for music has really manifested itself.

Reasons

One simple question.

He Comes in the Night

Suddenly out of nowhere the whirlwind of emotions and thoughts hit you in the face as you try to close your eyes. From past experiences I can only assume this will be yet another on of those ruined nights. One of those nights where all those questions pop up. When scenarios play though your head. You're reminded of everything that's been. It's like the disappointment has no end.

It's times like these when you want to punch through the walls because there's just not enough room for all the frustration. Multiple stab wounds don't heal over night. It takes time to heal. Even when the physical wounds have healed you're not too keen on having a lot to do with knives. Only the sight of them remind you. You can almost feel those cold blades again.

What rushes through my mind now is everything I've learned since then. A sign and I'm reminded of everything good. The strength that isn't mine, the strength that I possess. 

ask.fm

So I recently decided to get an account on ask.fm. It's a site where anyone can send you questions anonymously. If you have an account you don't have to send questions anonymously. I originally created an account so I could follow the answers to the questions I asked. Then I decided to try having people ask me questions and found that it was fun. Perhaps it's good that I get to think about stuff. I had thought that people would ask a whole lot of stupid/improper questions but I haven't experienced any of that thankfully.

So please, feel free to ask me stuff. 

http://ask.fm/AlanKongari

Reconciliation?

Though you forgive the people who hurt you, reconciliation is something else. I have a hard time seeing that as a possibility. Sometimes we can't make it happen. I don't really want it to happen either, at least I don't want to do anything about it. I don't think that the effort is worth it. Then the questions arise, are my thoughts just? Should I change the attitude and meet this beast anyway? 

My dreams seem to be screaming at me to do something. Not to just leave it. To rise above the circumstances and be strong. Even though I expect to receive nothing in return I should still do what's right. 

I'm just not sure what's right in this situation.