Floating

I'm so very thankful. I've a lot to be thankful for. I survived. I got through this rough patch, but not by my own strength. I'm so thankful for all the people who've been there for me, giving me the support I need. I'm so grateful for all the encouragement given. You helped me hold this boat together.

I have really learnt a lot. I'm in a completely different place. We came through the storm, stronger than before. Life is moving on. I feel free. 

I've felt really inspired lately. My love for music has really manifested itself.

Reasons

One simple question.

He Comes in the Night

Suddenly out of nowhere the whirlwind of emotions and thoughts hit you in the face as you try to close your eyes. From past experiences I can only assume this will be yet another on of those ruined nights. One of those nights where all those questions pop up. When scenarios play though your head. You're reminded of everything that's been. It's like the disappointment has no end.

It's times like these when you want to punch through the walls because there's just not enough room for all the frustration. Multiple stab wounds don't heal over night. It takes time to heal. Even when the physical wounds have healed you're not too keen on having a lot to do with knives. Only the sight of them remind you. You can almost feel those cold blades again.

What rushes through my mind now is everything I've learned since then. A sign and I'm reminded of everything good. The strength that isn't mine, the strength that I possess. 

ask.fm

So I recently decided to get an account on ask.fm. It's a site where anyone can send you questions anonymously. If you have an account you don't have to send questions anonymously. I originally created an account so I could follow the answers to the questions I asked. Then I decided to try having people ask me questions and found that it was fun. Perhaps it's good that I get to think about stuff. I had thought that people would ask a whole lot of stupid/improper questions but I haven't experienced any of that thankfully.

So please, feel free to ask me stuff. 

http://ask.fm/AlanKongari

Reconciliation?

Though you forgive the people who hurt you, reconciliation is something else. I have a hard time seeing that as a possibility. Sometimes we can't make it happen. I don't really want it to happen either, at least I don't want to do anything about it. I don't think that the effort is worth it. Then the questions arise, are my thoughts just? Should I change the attitude and meet this beast anyway? 

My dreams seem to be screaming at me to do something. Not to just leave it. To rise above the circumstances and be strong. Even though I expect to receive nothing in return I should still do what's right. 

I'm just not sure what's right in this situation.

Bits and Pieces

I keep getting these fragments. I can't really put them together. It feels like there's something I'm missing and I don't know what it is. Perhaps I'm just not listening properly. I haven't written any of it down. It's like all I'm left with is this feeling of importance.

Maybe I need to redirect my focus?

Loads

There's so much going all it's hard to keep up.