Merry Christmas

I have more and more landed into this situation in life. I'm getting used to living like this. There are certain weaknesses that can be found in me which I feel don't necessarily have to be there. I could do something about it and grow into a better man. I really don't have any excuses, it's just a matter of doing it yourself. Once again taking steps further into the next level of independence.

These past few days have given me a lot to be thankful for. I've met with people I don't see too often. There isn't much to say really. We had a lot of fun. I feel a bit sorry for those who could not attend.

We had a lot of conversations now. It's like a whole world of understanding opened up. If I were to look back a few years I would never have thought that I could have managed to sit and discuss thing with them for that length of time. I have found it to be quite rewarding. We are continuously repairing the broken bonds.

Things have been intense. I don't feel like I've gotten much rest, but that's fine.

There seems to be a lot of new elements in my life as of late. Life is more or less stabilising.

Humbleness

Every now and then the past comes up and you feel regret. You regret the choices you made. Some things that happened still make you a bit sad. Some things come back to you and they help you move on. 

It came as a surprise, I wasn't expecting things to go the way they did. The whole thing humbled me. Hearing those words made me want to let it all go. I experienced a strong emotional response. I decided to stay silent. 

The past is the past and you can't change what happened, but you can always use it for something good.