Entering a new family

There's so much going on in my head I don't really know what to write. One thing is for certain is that it's not as easy as I had anticipated. Knowing that your contribution is very important and you haven't yet quite grasped what's expected of you. As I stood in the kitchen looking around me processing everything a strong emotion approached me. I looked at the drawing on the fridge and tried to understand. My heart was filled with sorrow. It broke my heart. The drawing tells a tale of what has transpired. 

I've only been here for a few days and already I've taken in so much, learned so much, thought about so much. I just want to snap my fingers and make it all go away. I just want to remove all the stress. It feels like the most essential thing just isn't as present as it should be, but I can tell that it's there. It's just that the situation is tight. I want to be better. I want to do more. I want to help.

I can't help but to think about others people in this same situation. How do they handle it? Knowing how common it is makes a scary reality. I don't get how people do it. Also it's a reminder of why we see the things we see.

I'm just wondering if I actually can make a difference or not. Am I going to be of help or will I end up being more of a burden? Of course I can make a difference! That's why I'm here. I'm here to help. At the same time I realise I can't do it by myself. Thankfully I'm not alone either.

A New Beginning

I guess you could say life is quite exciting at the moment. Everything is new and it's a lot to take in. It's no problem though. It won't take long till I'm settled in. I'm looking forward to exploring. I'm looking forward to going into these deep discussions. I'm looking forward to making a difference. I feel called. I know this is where I need to be right now. My mission. I will learn a lot. I am grateful.