Thought patterns

Recent thoughts that have crossed my mind have made me worry. Worry about what's going on inside. These violent outbursts held inside, these hurtful thoughts kept to myself. All for the sake of another. Why feel these urges? Why are they growing stronger and stronger all the time? If this keeps on, how long will it take before it consumes me? What kind of consequences could it have in the long-run? I know that these sleepless nights aren't going to have a good effect on the whole thing but it seems to be a product of this whole thing.

Sitting right in between two black holes feeling that you are being ripped apart. Not only from the outside but a monster is trying to break out from the prison inside you.